As I sit at my desk tonight trying to
complete my credo a wave of thoughts ramble through my mind. Unsettling memories of the mistakes I have made
throughout my life. Truthfully, I am hesitant to call them mistakes; let’s just say - I
have traveled the road less traveled more than I wish to admit. Raised as an
independent young woman I took the term independent
a little bit too far at times. My life thus far has been filled with countless
memories in which I did not seek the advice of my elders; nor did I accept any advice
that was offered.
I can remember my father asking me,
“will you ever learn the easy way?” Naturally, I said no and was complacent of
my resistance even in my early twenties. Now in my thirties I often wonder what
would be different in my life if I would have complied and lived life by the common code. Would I have finished my college degree by the age of 23, had time to be social resulting in a blossoming network of sorority sisters, or simply not be in my thirties divorced with three kids? I will never know
the answers to those questions- we cannot reverse time. However, sitting here tonight I am reminded- I am proud to
stand by my past- even the ugly less appealing past. I am proud to say that I didn't take the common
path through life. I wear emotional scares and sport many successes of which my less than perfect past created. I may not have finished
college by 23 and I certainly was a mother before I planned- but I wouldn't
trade my successes or my children for planning my life by the code of common instructions.
Today I can say I am happy- I am content.
If I were given the opportunity to change one thing about my life it would
simply be-nothing. I am pleased I took
the path less traveled. It has opened my eyes to experiences that I never would
have mastered if I had traveled the over-crowed highway of common conformation.
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